I Am Not Paranoid, But That Doesn't Mean They Still Aren't Out to Get Me.

My name is Logan and I am not paranoid.

Usually.... Today, however, I had a constant feeling that the universe was out to get me....

And they could still be out there, watching me, at this very moment (que Twilight Zone theme.)

Ok, probably not, but I know it sure as heck feels like it sometimes.

First, the construction crew who has so thoughtfully blocked my view and filled my room with the ambient noises of power drills, decided that 8 am would be a great time to start boom-booming and crish-crashing.

THEN, for the second class in a row I managed to do the wrong Spanish assignment (ok, so that was no ones fault but mine.)

Lastly, I am trying my best on Weight Watchers and I ordered a grilled chicken wrap and the Cafe on campus gave me fried (and then held a gun to my head while I ate it....) and the day isn't over yet.

But, as is the theme of this bloggity-blog, I will not let outside forces affect the person that I am and that person is not paranoid. I will face my day with a positive attitude!

Today is dedicated to overcoming that sense of "everyone is out to get me," and focusing on all the negative aspects of the day. I shall smile in the face of those who are out to get me and tell them to kiss my ass... Well, maybe not... But in my head I will!

Who am I?

Identity Crisis?

When someone asks "Who are you?" I, like most others, reply with your typical answers. 


"Oh I'm Logan York, I'm a student and a waitress." 


This would satisfy normal people but, apparently college Philosophy professors aren't normal......Go figure.


"That's what you do, Logan, now tell me WHO you are." 


"Uhhhhhhh..... pass?" 


You see, as it turns out I have no idea. None. Nada. Zipparoni. I have no clue who I am. I thought I knew, but I was wrong. 


What I learned in Philosophy 101 was that where you are and what you are doing today, has nothing to do with who you are. The rule of thumb is, if it can be affected by any outside force, then it's not you.


 I could be fired from my job and I could get sick and have to quit school (knock on wood,) so those things don't make me who I am. They don't make you who you are either. 


So when I answered Dr. Dworin's question, he ever so politely informed me that I was wrong (which I am a lot in Philosophy class.) Clearly, one thing I am NOT is a philosopher...... but what are some things I am?


I have decided that I will make a list, of all the things I am, and that will be a good starting point.


Name: Logan York


Age: 19 and counting (the Duggar's have one kid for every year old I am... that's disguting.)


Occupation: Student, Tutor, Assistant Librarian and Waitress (I'm a busy beaver.)


Appearance: Streaky long hair, gray eyes, freckles and a curvy body!


Weight: Somewhere between "More to love," and Kirstie Alley


All of these things do not matter, because these things are to easily changed by outside forces. I age every year (and the Duggar's have more kids), my jobs are constantly changing, my appearance is subject to age and my weight is subject to Thanksgiving dinner and pre-vacation slimfast binges. So, I will no longer use any of those things to describe myself.

How will I introduce myself?


My name is Logan York


 I..... 


eat when I'm bored


Hate peas


Only clean when I can't see the floor


Love to paint my nails


Laugh whenever possible


Like to sing all the time


Sometimes dance like a white girl


Never let people see me cry


Always play Devil's advocate in any argument

That is probably not the most impressive introduction, or the one that will get me the most dates on eHarmony but, it's the most honest one. And, from now on, I'm going to try my best to dig deeper and find more ways to describe my "real," self and continue to develop and search to find the best person I can and want to be. This is my journey.

Who are you?